I thought I was going to be
我以为我会
paralyzed we should not be doing this
瘫痪我们不应该这样做，
like this is so
这太
dumb what a dumb way to die I just sleep
愚蠢了，多么愚蠢的死法我只是睡觉
I don't know what happened I just
我不知道发生了什么我只是
[Music]
[音乐]
slep hey I'm slipping I used to be well
睡觉嘿我滑倒了我曾经是
known in the herck community URC stands
在赫克社区众所周知，URC 代表
for urban exploration going where you're
城市探索，去那些你
not meant to be exploring places of the
不应该探索的
city that are not meant to be seen by
城市地方，那些不应该被
the public rooftops train tunnels
公共看到的地方，屋顶，火车隧道，
abandoned buildings some on his phone at
废弃的建筑物，有些在游泳池里用手机
the pool I don't know if he Sur god what
我不知道。 不知道他是否天哪，
the it's trespassing like it's illegal
这是非法侵入，就像这是非法的，
it's popular on social media like I was
它在社交媒体上很受欢迎，就像我
obsessed with it I was obsessed with
沉迷于它一样，我沉迷于
taking the best photos doing all tunnels
拍摄最好的照片，在所有隧道中，
really trying to push the the boundaries
真的试图突破
of you know what was possible and what
你的界限，你知道什么是可能的，什么是可能的
was not
不可能
possible everything was so intense you
一切都如此激烈，你
know running from police running from
知道逃离警察，逃离
security finding ways to sneak into this
安全，想方设法潜入这座
building feeling the wind of a train
大楼，感受火车
rush by as you're in a manhole knowing
呼啸而过的风，就像你在沙井里一样，知道
like it could be all over in 2 seconds I
这一切可能会在两秒钟内结束，我
don't think anyone had captured like the
不知道 在
Australian OBC scene like me before I
我这样做之前，我认为没有人像我一样捕捉过澳大利亚 OBC 的场景，
did it i' travel to different states to
我去不同的州
get clips and my work was popular online
获取剪辑，我的作品在网上很受欢迎，
because people always want to know
因为人们总是想知道
what's happening in places they can't
他们无法
access or places they can't
访问或可以访问的地方正在发生什么
see one year during Vivid which is like
有一年在缤纷灯光节期间，就像
a Lights Festival we went up a roof and
灯光节一样，我们爬上屋顶，
it was raining like crazy we're taking
下着疯狂的雨，我们
photos at Sunset and then we hid because
在日落时拍照，然后我们躲起来，因为
security were coming and we're hiding on
保安来了，我们躲在
the
roof as the night fell one of us looked
屋顶上，因为夜晚 我们中的一个人
out and goes what is that and we all
向外望去，那是什么，我们都
looked out we realized Vivid was
向外望去，我们意识到 Vivid 正在
projecting lights onto the building we
将灯光投射到我们所在的建筑物上，那
were on W what that's [\h__\h]
是他妈的
SI you see looking over seeing all the
SI，你看到了，看到了
lights of the crazy neon colors of the
城市里疯狂的霓虹灯颜色的所有灯光，
city and thinking like what this is
想这太
crazy so we were all like getting pelted
疯狂了所以我们都像被
with rain I was in my school uniform
雨淋了我穿着校服
still I was obsessed with
仍然很着迷我
it I think when I first started I was 14
想当我第一次开始时我14岁
kind of shy and like I was getting like
有点害羞并且就像我
bullied in school problems making
在学校问题中受到欺负一样
friends I I wasn't doing that good my
朋友们，我做得不太好，我的
parents were strict my mom she put a
父母很严格，我妈妈她
tracker on my phone and I was only
在我的手机上装了一个追踪器，我只被
allowed to go certain areas and get the
允许去某些区域并进入赫克
herck community like a lot of people are
社区，就像很多人都
having family issues like whether it's
遇到家庭问题一样，比如是否
because you know you're the type of
因为你知道 你是那种
person that's going to hang off a
会悬挂在建筑物上的人，
building or maybe you're hanging off a
或者也许你悬挂在
building because the stuff that's
建筑物上是因为
happening at home I just you know it
家里发生的事情我只是你知道这感觉
felt like cool like I can be cool
很酷就像我可以在
somewhere you know like I can feel like
你知道的地方很酷就像我能感觉到的 就像
I found my place somewhere you you you
我在某个地方找到了自己的位置，你和
make a bond with people like that you
这样的人建立了联系，你
know I found people that are like me
知道我找到了像我这样的人，他们
what helped make everything so special
让一切变得如此特别，
is you knew like this is this is not
你知道这不会
going to last
forever you don't typically do things
永远持续下去，你通常不会这样做
like this in Broad daytime but we we're
大白天发生这样的事情，但我们
just like we don't
就像我们
care so I wake up on this public holiday
不在乎，所以我在这个公共假期醒来，
and I check my phone my phone's going
我检查我的手机，我的手机
off one of my friend is saying like
关机了，我的一个朋友说，
because it's public holiday like let's
因为这是公共假期，所以我们就
do this roof public holidays means
这样做吧 屋顶公共假期意味着
there's no security they're on holiday
没有安全，他们在度假，
I'm saying like they they have a day off
我是说他们休息一天，
we were trying to do things that hadn't
我们试图做一些尚未
been done we were trying to do crazier
完成的事情，我们试图做更疯狂的
buildings and it was like the biggest
建筑，它就像是最大的
building site in North Sydney at the
建筑工地 当时在北悉尼，
time half asleep I'd barely eat in I was
我半睡半醒，几乎不吃东西，我
like whatever let's go do that in like
就想，无论如何，让我们在光天化日之下去做吧，
broad daylight we we may get done like
我们可能会完成，
like things really easily may go wrong
就像事情很容易出错一样，
we should not be doing this like this is
我们不应该这样做，这
so
太
dumb is oh
愚蠢了 哦，
[\h__\h] anyway and we get into the building
无论如何，我们进入了
site and we've walked up maybe like 60
建筑工地，我们走了大约 60
flights of stairs I was taking some
段楼梯，我正在拍一些
photos my friends like taking like
照片，我的朋友们喜欢在
Snapchats and stuff
Snapchat 上拍摄，东西
got all the way to the top and the
一直到了顶部，
building had a crazy view it was like
建筑物的景色很疯狂 这就像
the tallest building in the
area we watched the sunset like crazy
区最高的建筑，我们看着日落，就像疯狂的
colors everything was like
色彩，一切都很
calm one of us looks down and and sees
平静，我们中的一个往下看，看到有
there's a security car driving around in
一辆安全车在
the site we're running bro I'm running
我们正在运行的站点周围行驶，兄弟，我正在运行
like I'm not getting CAU today like exit
我今天没有得到 CAU，就像从
out of the stairwell into the main area
楼梯间出口进入
of the site and as we get to the the
工地的主要区域一样，当我们在
bottom of the building site in the open
露天到达建筑工地的底部时，
like the car was in the site I just need
就像汽车在工地上一样，我只
to get out of here I just can't get
需要离开这里 我只是不能被
caught like I'm not trying to get done
抓住，就像我不想完成任务
like and so we all rushed to the fence I
一样，所以我们都冲向栅栏，我
climbed to the top of this
爬到了
fence I'm like I don't know I just slep
栅栏的顶部，我就像我不知道我只是睡着了
I don't know what happened I just slip I
我不知道 发生了什么事 我只是滑倒
fell down six
了 2018 年
stories
1 of October
10 月 1 日，
2018 after being chased by Security in a
在一个建筑工地被保安追赶后，我从六层楼上摔了下来
construction site I attempted to climb a
我试图爬上
fence to escape my foot slipped and I
栅栏躲避，我脚滑倒了，我
fell backwards down the cran shop six
向后摔下了起重机车间的六层
stories I'll never forget the Echoes of
楼 我永远不会忘记 回响着
my best friend scream I'll never forget
我最好的朋友的尖叫声 我永远不会忘记
the doctor's solemn expression as she
医生
told me I'd broken my back my sister's
告诉我我的背骨折了时的严肃表情 我姐姐的
tears the CTS MRIs x-rays surgery at 17
眼泪 17 岁时的 CTS MRI 检查 X 光手术
years old I almost lost a life of
我几乎失去了自由的生活
freedom for a few fleeting moments of
feeling
感觉
free what a dumb way to die like you're
自由的时刻，多么愚蠢的死法啊，就像你
not falling from a
没有从
rooftop you're not getting hit by a
屋顶上掉下来，你没有被火车撞到，但是
train buto I fell at the bottom floor of
我跌倒在建筑工地的底层，
a construction site and so yeah we get
所以是的，我们得到了
the hospital I got rushed through the
我匆忙经过的医院
pain was crazy so they do X-rays and giv
疼痛非常厉害，所以他们给我做了 X 光检查，给了
me painkillers and emergency surgery uh
我止痛药，并进行了紧急手术，呃，
and it had a spinal fusion so I had um
它有脊柱融合术，所以我
two rods and four screws in my back I
背上有两根杆和四个螺钉，我
thought I was going to be
以为我会
paralyzed going through like the
像手术一样瘫痪，
surgeries and going through different
经历不同的
hospital procedures like I couldn't
医院程序，就像我无法
imagine life you know without being able
想象如果不能
to walk or having these problems right
走路或遇到这些问题的生活，
my family were amazing during the time
我的家人在
of my recovery like my dad he would come
我康复期间非常棒，就像我的父亲一样，他
and stay with me every night in the
每天晚上都会来医院陪我，
hospital like it was a terrible like
就像 这是一个可怕的
little Lounge NE next to me and he would
小休息室，就像我旁边的NE一样，他
sleep on it every night my mom would
每天晚上都会睡在上面，我妈妈
come and visit me every day my sister
每天都会来看我，我姐姐
flew in from overseas to come and be
从海外飞来和
with me like I had a lot to come to
我在一起，就像我有很多事情要
terms with it's like cool like this is
接受一样 这很酷，就像这是
your fault you know seeing my mom so
你的错，你知道看到我妈妈如此
upset and so anxious and things like
沮丧和焦虑之类的事情
that basically like I broke the one
基本上就像我折断了
vertebrae in your back that you can
你背部的一根椎骨，你可以
break without having lifelong problems
折断它而不会遇到终生问题，
you know and I had to learn to walk
你知道，我必须重新学会走路
again um a lot of like rehab and
嗯，很多像康复和
recovery process like I've put all this
恢复过程，就像我已经承受了所有这些
strain and my family you know they're
压力，我的家人你知道他们
having to come visit me at hospital
必须来医院探望我，
they're having to come do this it was
他们必须来这样做，
like that you know what I mean there's
就像你知道我的意思一样
no one else to blame like it is fully my
没有人可以责怪，就像这完全是我的
fault you know I cannot hurt my family I
错，你知道，我不能伤害我的家人，我
cannot hurt my mom like that again you
不能再那样伤害我的妈妈，你
know maybe for the first time in my life
知道，也许是我一生中第一次，
I realized like like life is so short I
我意识到生命如此短暂，我
I felt so blessed like I kept waking up
感到如此幸福，就像我一样 一直醒来，
being like like this is crazy like I
就像这样，这太疯狂了，我
cannot believe like I'm here I shouldn't
不敢相信，我在这里，我不应该
be here right
在这里，对吧
now once I got better once I
现在，一旦我好起来，一旦我
recovered I just kept going the way my
康复，我就继续按照我的
brain worked I just couldn't I couldn't
大脑工作方式进行，我就是做不到 我无法
stop I was in hospital thinking about
停止在医院里思考
the roofs I was going to do like as
我要做的屋顶，这听起来很
crazy as it sounds right I had been
疯狂，但我已经
doing this for for so long it was such a
这样做了很长时间，它是
core part of who I was and I couldn't
我的核心部分，我无法
imagine doing anything else and I think
想象 做其他事情，我
like when you're young and you're
想当你年轻的时候，你
running from cops every weekend you're
每个周末都在躲避警察，你
in train tunnels you're seeing like
在火车隧道里，你会看到
craziest things death in front of your
最疯狂的事情，死亡就在你
face like it is like unnatural levels of
面前，就像肾上腺素水平不自然一样，
adrenaline genuinely I felt addicted
真的，我 有时候我会上瘾，
there was times where I would do a train
我会做一个火车
tunnel and I I would come home and cry
隧道，我会回家哭，
because I felt so guilty I knew if my
因为我感到很内疚，我知道如果我的
parents found out I was doing herex it
父母发现我在做herex，那
would be game over I would be grounded
游戏就结束了，我会永远被禁足，
forever we were in this train tunnel it
我们在这列火车上 隧道
was all good um we took photos and we
一切都很好，我们拍了照片，然后我们
left came home and like I I guess I
离开回家，就像我一样，我想我
still had like tunnel grease on my face
脸上仍然有隧道油脂，
my dad was yelling at me in the middle
我爸爸在街中央对我大喊大叫，
of the street like in front of my
就像在我的
friends my mom like broke down to me and
朋友面前一样，我妈妈像崩溃了 对我
and said like I can't you can't live
说，我不能，你不能
with me how how could you do this to us
和我一起生活，你怎么能这样对我们，
you going to die if you keep doing what
如果你继续做你正在做的事情，你就会死，
you're doing I was so ashamed and it
我很羞愧，这
really hit me like I can never do this
真的让我很震惊 再也不会这样做了，
again so like I went to therapy the way
就像我去接受治疗
that my therapist like treated me was
一样，我的治疗师对待我的方式就是
the way that she treats people that
她对待那些
can't stop cheating on their partners
无法停止欺骗伴侣的人和那些
and people that are addicted did the
上瘾的人的方式，
hard substances like a mix of those two
就像这两
things which like you know puts things
件事的混合一样 就像你知道的那样，
into perspective I guess it was an
我想这是一种
addiction like I was hurting other
上瘾，就像我伤害了别人一样，
people I was putting my life in danger
我把自己的生命置于危险之中，这和
it's just as valid as any other
addiction you know like if I keep doing
你知道的任何其他上瘾一样有效，就像如果我继续
this like I'm going to die and I just
这样做，就像我会死一样 我只
knew like it's only a matter of time
知道
before this happens to someone
这种事迟早会发生在
else out of nowhere I received a phone
别人身上只是时间问题 我接到一个
call saying one of my best friends one
电话，说我最好的朋友之一，
of the people I started doing everything
我开始和他一起做所有事情的人之一，
with he's fallen off a
他从火车上摔下来了，
train this friend like was kind of known
这个朋友很友善
for doing stuff to the extreme you know
以做事极端而闻名，你知道，
so I just instantly knew things were not
所以我立刻就知道情况不太
good he lost his life while train
好，他在火车冲浪时失去了生命，
surfing um I mean yeah like losing a
嗯，我的意思是，是的，就像失去了一个
friend one of my best friends one of the
朋友，我最好的朋友之一，我
people I started doing everything with
开始和他一起做每件事的人之一
is like so like so
就像 所以就像让
upsetting such a painful and traumatic
thing to go
through for me it just really affirmed
我经历如此痛苦和创伤的事情一样让我心烦意乱，这确实证实了
like that that what what we did you know
我们所做的事情你知道
what we were doing was so dangerous
我们正在做的事情是如此危险
obviously I've stopped my friends have
显然我已经停止了我的朋友们
stopped now but I'm seeing these 12 13
现在已经停止了但我看到了 这 12 个 13
yearolds on Tik Tok doing the same thing
岁的 Tik Tok 上的人做了同样的事情，
that my friend died from check me out
我的朋友死于
train
火车
surfing you know it after my friend died
冲浪，你知道，在我的朋友去世
like a few weeks afterwards one of the
几周后，其中一个
young people recognized me and and said
年轻人认出了我，并说
oh like sleeping like you're the reason
哦，就像睡觉一样
like I I herex and and started herxing
像我这样的原因，我在这里，开始她，
and was showing me videos of him train
向我展示他火车冲浪的视频，
surfing my friend has just died doing
我的朋友刚刚死了，
like what you're showing me like like
就像你向我展示的那样，就像
you you need to understand like that
你一样，你需要明白，
once one of your friends dies doing it
一旦你的一个朋友死了，
bro your life will never be the same you
兄弟你 生活永远不会一样，你
know like to go see my friend like we
知道，喜欢去见我的朋友，就像我们
have to go to the Grave yard for every
必须去每个
young person I try and push a message of
年轻人的坟墓场一样，在我停止她的行为之后，我尝试推送一条信息，
like nothing is worth your
就像没有什么值得你的
life after I stopped herxing like was
生命一样，就像在
struggling to find like my place in
努力寻找一样 我在社会中的地位
society my identity again you know one
再次我的身份你知道有
one day I had an idea like maybe I
一天我有一个想法，也许我
should do a music video I messaged a
应该制作一部音乐视频我给
local rapper he said yeah like let's
当地的一位说唱歌手发了消息，他说是的，我们
film a video this weekend there's Boys
这个周末拍摄一个视频，里面有穿着
in bavs and there's boys wielding flares
Bavs 的男孩，还有挥舞着信号弹的男孩
and like manness right and like I just
等等 男子气概是对的，就像我
felt for the first time in like a year
一年来第一次感觉到
i' I feel like I'm doing what I meant to
我正在做我想做的事情，
be doing you know like like I finally
你知道，就像我终于
feel like when I was coming home after a
感觉到当我在隧道或公共汽车后回家时的感觉
tunnel or on the bus home after a roof
回家后的屋顶
that video I did like it went crazy it
那个视频我确实喜欢它疯了它确实
did like a few million views on YouTube
像 YouTube 上的几百万次观看一样，
and like from that day I have not
就像从那天起我就没有
stopped his death was so painful and
阻止他的死亡对我们所有人来说都是如此痛苦和
traumatic for all of us but it also like
创伤，但它也
made us all realize like life is so
让我们所有人意识到 生命如此
short and life can be taken away at any
短暂，生命随时都可能被夺走，没有任何
second and like there's no point herex
意义，这里是
is dangerous and it can cost your life
危险的，它可能会夺走你的生命，
and no photo no experience no doing
没有照片，没有经验，没有做
anything is worth your
任何事情值得你的
life
生命